our story <33

2010-06-11T03:25:00.002+08:00

been quite some time since i last blogged. nothing interesting, life is tiring as usual. baby is ending his work tmr (: yay! applied for job and hope can get it. ubin for ATC/STC this saturday. hope my work wont clash with the camp. >.<

trying to focus on BRF but cannot seem to. sighs. life sucks, school sucks. i just wan to sleep all day. i'm such a pig. escaping maybe. something many people cannot see, sleeping is the best form of escape. no escapes for me tonight, that's for sure. ):

wanna get the new iphone 4. its so gorgeous. i never liked iphone but the exterior of this phone is utterly classy, elegant, stunning. come on! GLASS! love it~ so that's my latest obsession and hope it quickly arrives in singapore and settle down the pricing. 2 things i wanna get in particular, or maybe 3. long wallet, analog watch and iphone 4. which is gonna add up to maybe near $1000 cos i know myself. i am EXTREMELY brand conscious. meaning my watch and wallet wont be cheap.

2009-08-17T00:20:00.000+08:00

I HAVE OFFICIALLY MOVED TO:

jiahui-love.livejournal.com

BECAUSE BLOGGER SUCKS!

2009-08-10T23:18:00.001+08:00

okay blogger is really PISSING me off because i cant upload pics! dob enev hav the stupid HTML box. WTF.

anyway i don know why i feel BLOODY DISGUSTED woith you two. YES BLOODY UCKING DISGUSTED. you two are oathetic. grow up and be more matured. PLEASE. i spent one entire night not able to sleep worried bout you two. i really feel so GROSSED OUT. i don know why so strong feelings. prolly because in reality and in elsewhere, the image portrayed is so different. nobody will be abler to understand i guess.

come on. please go fucking get a life and stop disturbing me with all your stupid childish immature quarrels cos i don care anymore. yes I DON CARE. childish immature, always swearing to start anew but SINCE WHEN.

i may hav to reflect on myself for this post, and you need to do hell lot of reflection too.

if you think im refering to you my friend, YES I AM.

2009-08-04T23:31:00.000+08:00

well as i don know how to tell you face to face i'll just type here and tell you to read it.

use of a blog (:

recently i think you are feeling so frustrated with me? you seem more irritated with me than usual. mayb its my imangination. it just seems. you became colder?
the future seems not as bright as before, and you don laugh as easily anymore.

i hope im thinking too much. as much as you reassure me, its still lingering on my mind.

i don wan anything to change, i don wan you to ever leave me, i don wan this to end, i don wan any changes in our relationship.

2009-08-02T22:03:00.000+08:00

惡作劇之吻

THIS IS OFFICIALLY MY LATEST CRAZE!

i know i abit slow la, hahaha. but its DAMN nice! hooked man! gg back watch le! CIAO.

ZHI SU <333

2009-07-28T21:50:00.002+08:00

Sometimes im thankful that I hav blogger, cos its probably my only platform to shout scream and vent my angers when im at home. In the past I used to have my own room so it wasn’t that bad, but now im restricted to many things.
Once again its gonna be a long wordy post. Those of you who know me well you shd know why its gonna be wordy. Those who don’t I suggest youclose this window cos yes, this is gonna be another long ranting post.
You know how everyone thinks im lazy? Friends la, mother la, father la, brother la, strangers la. Sometimes I wonder too, why? Maybe im just trying to escape from the world. maybe im just trying to run away from reality. Sleeping is the only time im free. No, thinking back, its not really too.cos im always disturbed by my mother, who will scream at me if she’s unhappy with anything, even though I am already sleeping.
Since young I have always been the straightforward one. Sorry man, im not like my brother who knows how to lick boots of both side. If im not happy, I show it. And ya normally I talk without thinking, unlike others who know what to say at the right time. Sorry im not talented in this aspect man.
Just because you are better than me in SOME ways doesn’t mean you are better than me IN ALL. I really have a very very hard time tolerating your attitude, and sometimes I think its better if you just shut the fuck up. You probably cant tolerate mine either so we should jus shut up and stop talking. Words cant describe how disgusted I am with you. Honestly. Just because mum treats me like shit doesn’t mean you gotta add on and treat me like shit too. As much as you don like me I am your elder sister, and since when hav you ever talked to me like one? You always talk to me like mum, like y aim the piece of shit stinking up your room. Don like me? Fine I don like you too. Den just don talk to me. Its more tolerable than having you talk in that fucked up scornful im not worth a shit tone.
And mum. Hahah. She is nothing like one. More like my maid. Im bad huh? No. she only makes sure HER house is clean. HER house yes, not home. Mayb the only part she is unlike a maid is she givs me money. Lol. Ya you might be thinking, this jiahui ah. !@#$%^&*. Say that of her mum. You are not me so don’t judge. Try living in my shoes, and you’ll know what hell im living in. She says to me ‘I don know what fh see in you. You’re short dark fat lazy ugly smelly messy.’ Amazing. I know im not perfect but I never knew I was such an imperfect person in her eyes. Im really tired of living in this house. I really am.
I still hav so much more to rant about but I see no point since nobody cares and I might as well just shut my fucking trap and think of the most painless way to die. Its true dying is selfish and suicide is a crime.
But rmb, im jiahui.my family would probably be happier if im gone for good(1 less mouth to feed, no expensive poly fees that will be deducted from HER hard earned money, no person to mess the house, no person to stink the house), friends will get over it(just friends anyway), bf can find someone the exact opposite of me(neat, slender, pretty, tall smells good and don torture him). So see? Win win situation. Dying doesn’t solve everything, but it certainly ends my misery and yours too.

2009-07-26T23:12:00.003+08:00

today went to woodlands library to o projs! met bh at bout 9 reached bout 9 plus.took 168 there faster. ^^ then had macs breakfast.met up with qx, proj from bout 10 plus till 3.30. bout 3 as usual ME got bored and started playing w webcam! LOL.:D

then went back to tam, and had dinner! then bee came over to my house watch liverpool vs singapore while i dozed off waiting for him. liverpool won 5-0 leh! pathetic sia! LOL. anyway he enjoyed it la. he so excited come bouncing to me telling me the score and i was like half asleep. no no fuly asleep! can hardly digest what he blabbering. hahaha! he hung around till 10 and he trained home.

oh ya i got laughing fits on the way back from tam and i just couldnt stop laughing! really! think i kinda freaked bee out, till he totally bo chup me lor. i on 81 from TPJC laugh and laugh and laugh till i alight and laugh till we go 7-11 buy food and laugh till i reach home. -.- LITERALLY DIDNT STOP. till i finally managed to calm myself down. don know why la! no reason lo! think i gg insame le. hahaha.

tmr baby fetching me to schooooool! ♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥

really love you bee! really! i cant imangine my life without you now. not because of your car, but because from day 1 till now 459 days, you became a BULLY totally! which i really enjoy la despite all my whinings and complains. :D you really transformed into the guy im looking for and i hope i'll stay this way, the way you lve me too. (:

you said you tease me because you love me too much. i hope you really mean it, cos you eally changed from my quiet little boy to a non-stop-teasing-full-of-rubbish-cant-stop-talking-baby!

anyway here are my pics for today! astons tmr too! happiness!

baby and me! ♥♥♥

camwhore! so long never see my FRINGE.

2009-07-26T10:27:00.002+08:00

in woodlands library doing proj now.

BUT before i start, i need to blog to vent out my ANGER and frustration first. ARGH.

just saying you FORGOT its not an EXCUSE. from je to pasir ris is NOT a short distance and moreover he has NO car today! WTF. you try gg to je and back to pasir ris. and im NOT at home which makes it owrse.

ya i know i cannot toally blame you la, cos not all your fault, but please. dont use FORGET.

fuck it la.

2009-07-26T00:35:00.002+08:00

canwhore in bee's car with his sunglasses! LOL i know im not pretty and all, but once in awhile its fun!

went for NE3 today! :D didnt take much pics during parade, cos we more busy watching the show. lol. very nice and different, hilarious and witty. definitely one of the best so far! fun bag was QUITE NICE la, not as uglt as i imangined it to be. i took orange baby took green! hunted for parking lots for like almost 20 mins la! so long. almost late for show. saw ml, bh! den fetched bh and cy back to tam and pasir ris. (: sorry cy cant send u all the way back! )):

ARGH. i needa SLIM DOWN BY 18 OCTOBER! i swear im only gg to eat like breakfast and dinner. FUCK. why i so fat. i need my rebonding quickly too! )):

projects faster go away.

2009-07-25T01:03:00.002+08:00

JUST HOMEEEEEEEEEEE! and bathed le la. hahahah. so very super dee duper long never hang out till 12 plus den go home le. ^^ miss those days. central, ehub with my bros till 2am. ah well.

today went for stats only, seem to hav missed econs for like 2 weeks running alr. oh whatever. then did sbr proj in school.supposed to do pjm but sbr took up alot of time. left school bout 7.45 went to cathay for harry potter movie. watched the 9.30 one. okok la, cant really rmb the story. bee was sleeping almost the whole show cos tired and didnt understand. )): sorry hubby. )):

then show ended at bout 12.05 and poof! im homeeee! benefits of a car. ^^ loveeeeeeeeeee you baby!

i hope that you are feeling better. you might not be my closest friend but seeing you in this state hurts me as well. i admit we did have some tension or whatsoever, but i really hope you will still turn to me should you need any help. cos thats what friends are for. stay strong my friend, we'll live through these two months together. hang in there babe! you still have me! love!

2009-07-23T01:27:00.002+08:00

okay, quick post before i head off to sleep. bout 1.30am now and this is the timing i have been sleeping lately.

thats why always skip morning class. somebody save me, why on EARTH did i pick np?!

but then let many great pals like my 2D02 and of course fh, and because of them, school just seems to be a better place. come on people! jiayou!

just finished with sbr and im very satisfied with this ppt. hahaha. loveeeeeeeee doing ppt, really enjoy it. (:

next time me and darling little precious will love ppt too! hahaha! cos little precious de parents love doing ppt, so he/she will love it too! LOL.

kk just random and wanna say im PLEASED with my work. jiayou guys! sem's ending! :D

2009-07-21T22:09:00.002+08:00

okay for those of you who didnt catch what i meant by flag on car in previous post, this is how it looks like. LOL. stupid ass. he stuck this up and drove into ngee ann! don even dare look, think many people must be thinking what the heck is gg on. LOL. :D

HAPPY 15TH MONTH LOVE! <3

15 months! hahaha! so cool. anyway. toay went for i&e as usual, talk cock do abit of SBR. darling realised that he has no ISM in the noon, so met up at bout 12 to do proj. rather qx shio eer shauqi and me were doing. he jus accompany us and play game. lol. discussed quite alot, cool. (:

then tl came over to np find us. went over to wait for aaron chua and after that picked wj and kc. drove aaron to WCP collect his car. aaron sat in front so me tl wj and kc squash at the back. lol. aaron was saying gt this NP shirt, front look exactly like SP de, except its for NP la. then behind got like a SP word and a big cross! LOL! im soooooooooooo gonna buy it man.

anw after that went to esplande as the guys had proj to do. slept all the way there. reached and they started, tl and me sat and talked. they finished at bout 6, wanted to go bugis steamboat at first but changed mind to the one at suntec. stuffed all ourselves silly, went to arcade walk walk and such. received call from OC asking me go back. sighs. cannot escape le. so busy somemore. projs exams faster finish pls.

watched darling and tl play max tune, so long never see him play le. <3>

anw tl drove me back. for once me and hubby sitting at the back, he drive! ^^ so nice sia, finally can hav some time w him. sorry tl, you like our driver, though he said he liked it. LOL. thats bout it. happy happy day!

the shirt i bought. more like hoodie la. NICE RIGHT!

2009-07-18T22:51:00.003+08:00

17072009, friday

21042008 (:

nice? hahaha! yesterday in stats was alone. ): cos yenn alvin and zhuang wei all neh come. so got bored and started doddling and playing with the photo edit in my hp and presto! here is my masterpiece! <3

got 44% for stats test.LOL. expected to get far worse, suprised i didnt fail that badly. thanks to zhuang wei for the final 30 minutes of help! (:

18072009, saturday

first congrats to TZE LEE for passing his driver's test. (he drove us around today, SCARY! LOL.)

you see the flag hanging at the top? LOL. not very well taken cos i was in the car. anw we bought it at ikea for $5 and baby kiap it at the window. LOL. everyone turned their heads to see la! and gt one driver who drove past us gave a thumbs up sign. HAHAHA. :D another driver pointed at our flag. lol. what attention seekers we are. HAHAHA.

after ikea (finally ate my chicky wings!) went to arcade at doughby ghaut. then went to find mainey and jh to watch fireworks. went to esplande there and it was v happening! lol. many many people there waiting for fireworks too. we watched the helicopter and the 21 salute too! LOUD! hahaha! then the long awaited fireworks! spectectular! fantastic! there were double hearts but couldnt really capture it. then went for dinner.didnt eat my astons as planned. )))): cos v v long queue. ate at foodcourt.

cant wait fie full preview next week! and GOODIE BAG! :DDD

sorry bh neh send you home today. really sorry! ):

ps. the white boat like thingy are actually 'paper boats'! looks very sweet on the water!

2009-07-16T21:23:00.003+08:00

Darling says:

I'M BACK IN BUSINESS!! LOL. =x long long time never appear on the blog le. baby is gg to talk abt it when she sees the post. lol. x)

♥ I LOVE YOU BABY!! ♥

famous amos cookies!! cant wait to taste it tmr. x)

baby the best in the whole wide universe! :* :* :*

2009-07-14T20:47:00.006+08:00

okay i was like suposed to publish and blog yesterday but i seriously very tired and fell asleeo at 10 after slamming my lappy screen shut. waited for bee to reach home and boom! sleep till 6! hahaha! best sleep for ages, 8 hours straight.

so yesterday another i&e waste time session. stayed back in school to finish up all my i&e outstanding projs and finally cleared everything. met bh alicia and atikah cos their class cancelled. stayed ay library to finish up my i&e reflection and everything.

after that at bout 4 plus went to support mengyun and co for jer i&e. cake making. hahaha. i dint make, bought a pre done one. LOL. :D cute hor.

then bus-ed down to city hall with bh and alicia. they went off for their wuhan gathering and baby fetched me home. stopped at ws for dinner first. then he said he gg toilet. i KNEW he was gg to get something for me. hahaha. cos v obvious. i thought he would get 3 flowers. i was half wrong.

he came back with ONE. LOL. so i dint suspect anything, just happy. hahaha. went back to car, he keep telling me oen my bag put the flower inside cos scared the flower dirty. i didnt really get the hint, so i was like why so xiao qi! one flower also scared dirty. then i took up my bag with a TL face and he just kept laughing. was thinking don tell me inside still have! hahaha!

opened and boom! another 3 roses sitting inside my bag! silly ass! so sweet la!

LOL. to think i fell for it. aww. whatever. its no occasion but its nice la, once in awhile suprises do light and make the whole relationship lighter and brighter. happy! hahaha!

took quite alot of pics since i realised too that we both haven take pics for v long, for hell knows what reason. lol.

thanks baby! no need for long thank you speeches, 3 words will do the trick.

I LOVE YOU.

cant wait for 21072009! time really flies when im with you love!

2009-07-14T10:01:00.002+08:00

HAHAHA. old school right! LOL. sharmaine will agree. hahaha. this was taken like in sec 3 or 4 i think? :D anyway i randomly uploaded this cos no pics so boring. hahaha,

totally in OLD SCHOOL MOOD!

im in I&E class now and v bored so shall do a random update since i think i hav been rather lazy to update lately.

yesterday met cy, kl, yc and bh at ehub for lunch and kbox! (((: god damn fun, though there were some fierce politics and debates during luch. hahaha. its all over, the choice is yours to mae eh, and i know i hav no right to interfere. had fish and co express. alicia joined for luch but not for kbox. talked for bout 1 hours plus then went in to KKKKKKKKKKKKK! hahaha.

kl entertained us throughly, hilarious. then all the retro songs came back, westlife la, dancing queen la, nothing's gonna change my love foe you la, and HOKKIEN SONGS! hahaha. in order to save kl's ass i shall not upload the videos. LOL. :DD thank me hor kl!

then after kbox met mainey jh and darling for dinner at IKEA! hahaha! finally i had my MUSHROOM SOUP! happiness. then fetched jh and mainey to ws and he came my house sit till bout 10 plus before gg to bbdc to fetch tzelee. >.<

yupp thats bout it for ystd.

2009-07-12T20:59:00.003+08:00

you know theres just this very bad habit or rather, mindset that almost 99% of the humans have.

below is a piece of paper. what do you see?

im certain many will answer: a dot.

yupp, tts true.

and this is why sometimes i find tt humans are not seeing enough.

the paper s 99% white, 1% red. why do we always see the dot rather than the white? hahaha.

why do we always see the bad thing in people, and never the good? why do we always remember the defect in them, when the rest of their good is left unnoticed?

ya im human, so i do tend to see the bad thing in someone more than the good. however im trying my best to remind myself, not to see that dot, but rather, the rest of the good that is in them.

ya once again if you guessed tt my mum inspired me to write this, its her. cos she never remembers anything good bout me, its just the many dots she remembers and things tt happened years ago, she still can bring it up.

come on guys. you know, it wont hurt to giv a praise, it makes anther person happier and you feel good too. parents being parents, they want their child to excel in everything, tts why more often than not we get labels instead of praises.

i don know why im writing all these, i just wanna remind everyone and of course, remind myself to look at the good point of others rather than the bad, and praises are free, giv them out generously, cos a little encouragement goes a long way.

2009-07-12T01:07:00.000+08:00

ITS MINE ALREAFY! (:

yupp in blue! loves man! screw pixon and loves to SE! <3333

2009-07-09T20:49:00.002+08:00

ARGH! I WANT THIS PHONE NOW! ):

2009-07-07T15:49:00.002+08:00

its gonna be another pathetic wordy post.

mum just came back. the moment she entered, she started shouting at me. and i was talking to alvin-he was tellig me what to do for I&E. and she totally ignored the fact that im talking on the phone and continued shouting at me. yes you got what you want. you want to embarrass me in front of my friends. show them that im messy and untidy and lazy and piggish. hahaha. congrats mum, you got your wish. you made him so sorry that he alled. good for you mum. you finally did ir. i DID open the windows. so i open 2 didnt open 4 is my fault? normally you only open 2 also. your clothes cant dry isit my problem? no. thats YOUR fucking problem. i don fucking care. ya you fucking hate me i know. FYI i don fucking like you either.

so isit my fault that the school fees are detucted from your acc? like that i quit school la, go work as a cleaner. good ma, got income and its a lousier job den yours. just what you always wanted. you work so hard is not to pay for me and jj living expense and school fees meh? den why you makinh hell of a fuss saying that all your work money is gone because ngee ann detucted from your acc?

you know NOTHING. you don know how it feels like to be screamed and yelled at the moment you mum comes home. you think you are RIGHT in EVERYTHING. you always say, people tell you things you wll reflect and change. really? LOL. cos i don think so, bitch. you are mental, a mental patient who still cant get over your husban leaving you for another woman. you are mentally WEAK, cos its been 5 years and you still cant accept the fact that he left you. ou are DEPRESSED and you don wan to admit it, you are UNHAPPY with life, and to a loser like you, you think DYING sloves everything. you are SELISH. know why? cos you die, ou always want to pull JJ and ME with you. saying you don wan us ti be a burden. never sparing a thought for us. true we might be unhappy with our lives now but it doesnt mean that 10 years later it will still be so pathetic.

YOU ARE A BITCH. I HAATE TO STAY WITH YOU.

EVERYONE ONLY ASK ME THINK FOR YOU THINK FOR YOU AND MORE FUCKING THINK FOR YOU.

THINK YOUR MUM SO POOR THING, NO HUSBAND NO JOB ONLY GOT A FUCKED UP GOOD FOR NOTHING KID LIKE YOU! HAHAHAHAHA! YA HATS RIGHT! IM A GOOD FOR NOTHING FUCKER!

2009-07-05T22:48:00.003+08:00

NEW BLOGSKIN!

hahaha! pinky eh. LOL. but whatever. i wanted to use my very first bs but cant find so this will hav to do. ya and i totallu LOVEEEEEEEEEE this song. i used to listen to it every single day before i sleep, in sec 2. if not i cant sleep. don know why. lol. ya very not rock and all, but its a really nice song. really. (:

no pics lately, so sorry. well i was just thinking this morning when i bathed.

i think i have issues. yeah no kidding.

just don know whether its depression, anger management or just my attitude.

what do you think?

lol. ya i know la, people who say they have depression normally don hav one. but really sia, thinking back of what happened over the past few months i really wonder if something is wrong with me. was telling baby that i should go see a physcologist, and he actually encouraged me to. HAHAHA. asshole. :D but honestly i think i should. just to check. if not i think im gonna start killing someone one day.

lol. yes something major happened on saturday. very major. those who know bout it, lilin hanchiew and tzelee, i would appreciate it if you didnt spread this issue. those who don know, well its better left unsaid. i just went really nuts and insane and i don know exactly why too. plus that time my brother that incident... just cant help feling that im having some issues, be it epression or anger management.

sighs. and im really trying to tolerate my brother and mother. calling me fat stupid and lazy all day long. so tires. i know im fat lazy and stupid but i don think they needa remind me any other minute. and my brother jus said im a fat pig crawling on the floor. so much for respect for elder sister yeah.

hahaha, then again, i already disowned my mum dad and brother in my heart years ago. its me against the world. yes. no family. hahaha. anyway im sure we all disowned each other ages ago, its just not in black and white. lol. oh well.

love and family doesnt exist in my dictionary. why do people priortise family over everything? i don understand. i never felt like a family before, even before my dad left. it was always my brother mum and dad. somehow i didnt exist cos my bro simply outshone me in everything.

i feel so sian now. nighty peeps.

2009-06-28T20:52:00.002+08:00

she has a guy friend. well, a really good friend. however he doesnt think she is a good girl friend to him. he never says oh thats too much, only thats too little. she gave him a present on his bday yet he simply said its not his type, and showed slight unhappiness about it. he never spared a thought for her, only asking her to do this and that without any traces of feeling bad or gradtitute, though he knows that he should be doing it too. lol. isnt she unlucky to have met him? ya. i think so too. i feel so sorry for her. she is such a pathetic loser. she cant say no to him or anyone else. she knows he hates her, yet she still sticks to him. not because she wants to but because she has no choice. poor girl to have met this guy. hahaha.

well im so sorry for this friend of mine. i hope she will lead her life better and dump this guy. wish her luck. (:

2009-06-25T22:32:00.002+08:00

TRANSFORMERS 2 IS A MUST WATCH!

hahaha! watched this yesterday with tze lee and darling. fantastic! though transformers 1 was nicer. (: hahaha. this is my new craze! i wanna collect ALL optimus prime and bumble bee figurines and merchandise! they are absolute LOVE! <33

tmr is packing up cum proj day. bought a new converse backpack! happines! lazy take pic so look out when school reopens. LOL. :D

oh ya i failed m econs CT. ))): received email to retake. but expected alr la. since i didnt study much for econs cos of pjm. sighs. hope i clear all modules this sem if not gg to hav headache again.

2009-06-21T21:11:00.002+08:00

okay im here to update bout my past few days (:

FRIDAY

went picnicking with my girls at marina barrage! we didnt sit outside though, cos it was like sunny and raining. ya ironic. -.- had quite little food but ended up very full for some reason. waited for rubbish bin jingheng to come and suck up the rest of our food. :D den went to the gallery, camwhored and explored abit. set back to cini to watch ghosts of girlfriends past. hilarious and romantic, i'd say worth a watch. sadly fh wasnt with me and i had to see smaine burying herself in jh towards the end of the movie. ): after the movie baby arrived. ^^ had subway for dinner and baby drove me home. (:

had an awesome time talking bout the past present and future. hahaha. great girlfriends i have man. love you babes! <33

SATURDAY

ran around whole of serangoon north with lilin finding her necessities for her new pup. den went airport take pics for proj. thats bout it.

TODAY

21062009

14 months <33

met baby and went to WWW. hahaha! my first time. lol. ya noob i know but my mum don really like me go theme parks. anyway. spent bout 3 hour plus there, basking in the sun, playing with my cousins and jus spending quality time together. (: didnt take pics though cos we were in water the entire time. >.<

ya my cousins were there cos its like a family day thingy and my mum bought us all tix. many people there, super duper crowded. bee is having some wedding dinner now and he left WWW at bout 5 plus. den met up again with my family members and had just acia for dinner. great day out. first time i really felt that sunday was a family day. <33

thank you hubby. 14 months and counting.

you promised.

'thats when i love you, when nothing you do can change my mind'

2009-06-20T11:51:00.002+08:00

why is it that in your eyes i can never be on par with jj? why? why are you always calling him in such an affocinate tone son here son there but when you talk to me u use such a disgusted tone? you don even call me by my name. you don call me anything. excrpt oii. but why u call jj son? why?

why is it u never realise that im also trying to be good. jus becos jj use com sitting in the study room means he's more 'hardworking'? jus becos i use com in the room lying down means im lazy? aeent we both using the com jus in different rooms and positions?

why don ou ever realise that his results are what he deserves? all he does is game game and game. and why when you tell him to stop you still can talk so pleasantly to him?COS HE YOUR SON RIGHT. cos he's the one u owe so much. jus becoos i got like what 3 baby albums and he got 1. jus becos of that u think u owe him so much till now. dumbshit. jus becos he more quiet. jus becos he skinny.jus becos u put all ur hope on him. jus becos u alr half given up on me.

my results are better than him. why u still dote on him more? everyone thought he v smart what. i in 6E he in 6C. confirm can get in victoria or AHS de. end up? he in prcs w a lousier aggregate den me. before PSLE who was talking so loud say will win me? you and jj. after PSLE what happened. you both tell me he gg win mw in Os. ya my Os results are pathetic if you don win me you are a loser.

i used to think you cared for me jus never show it. i gave up on that thought. u provide me w a shelter, money, my necessities. period. you never showed you love me. since a v long time age. dad might hav left the house, he still will hold my hands and pat my head. make me feel like a girl.like his daughter. you? nothing. i feel so envious when i see other girls taking photos w their mum and linking hands. cos u never wanted to take photos and i cant rmb when i last touched you. no hugs no kisses no nothing. that was the past when i was envious. now i jus don care anymore. since all u know is ur beloved son. he is so important to you. go on and we shall see in the future if he still treats you so nice. many small things u never notice. when u ask him open door throw rubbish, its always ME. why? cos he pretend not to hear when he playing com. when face probs w the com, isnt it ME too? cos jj is too busy w his game or too lazy to get out. and who u always call? 'son help me this help me that'. why u don call me? cos u think i lazy wont help. so in the end who is the one helping you? ME.

and u are gg to say im calculative and shit. YES I AM. ur so is an angel. perfect in your eyes. im jus a calculative piece of fat shit. why are u always comparing me w other girls? u like them so much ask them be ur daughter la. im not good jus becos im fat? hahaha. ya now i know why appearannce is impt. cos if u are fat ur mum wont love u anymore. lik my mum hates to see me jus cos im fat. im fat and ugly and useless and hopeless. thats why my mum doesnt love me. aand thats why slowly im starting to dislike myself too. i hate my appearance. im fat and ugly, useless. i cant do well in poly. im doomed. i might jus as well go die. lol. i think mayb even dying is letting me off too easily. after i die i shd be stabbed a hundred and thousand more times.

thats exactly how i feel now.

2009-06-18T22:59:00.003+08:00

okay here to update. that da went dinnering at ECP with mainey and jh. den went beach walk walk. (: food was great yeah man. love mutton satay and seafood! ahhhh! this is what darling drew for me. sweetie. <33

today went seoul garden-ing at Ehub, new branch. well it was very different from the rest cos instead of getting the food yourself, you order it via the com. lol. advanced eh. kinda different experience from the res of the other outlets, but worth a try.

after seoul garden went to arcade and darling caught me a toy! its 2 stitch in a balloon. super damn sweeeeeet! ((: he spent only like 5 bucks catching it. caught it at second attempt so only 4 bucks or actually. mr darling the best! ((: brought it home and he burst the balloon thou i told him not to. ): then started with the jiggy saw. (:

yupp. quite proud o what we achieved. hahaha. ^^ spent one whole day doing. 1000 pieces leh, not as easy. stayed at bee's house till bout 8 plus doing the puzzle and he drove me home. love you hubby!

done for the day

what his mum helped us do in like 1 hour (when bee fetch me home)

our puzzle design ^^

2009-06-17T22:24:00.003+08:00

I FINALLY BOUGHT THIS JIGGY SAW! (((((:

which is like a freaking 118 bucks with frame after 20% discount lor. >.<

actually darling boughti it for me as our 14th month gift! <33

this puzzle we are doing is going into our baby room! no la im not expecting. but we have decided we are gg to put this into our little precious'room. (: cant wait till we get our own home, im gonna have a puzzle piece in every single room. :DD

oh yes and this design we bought is the LAST PIECE IN SINGAPORE! hahaha. this is the first and initial design i wanted to buy months ago. and now i got it. gonna start doing tmr!

seoul garden and puzzle tmr and dinner all at baby's house. except seoul garden la duh. we'll be having it at Ehub, try somewhere new. lol. cant wait.

love you beeeeeeeeeeee!

2009-06-13T23:57:00.002+08:00

alright! here to update! LOL.

firstly i jus finished work at WATSONS! hahaha. great fun but very straining on the leg. quite boring i idnt do much. only worked from thursday till today. kinda sad to leave la, today finally got to know the people abit better, den today leave. ): really like the people there, interesting an much more, lazy type, next time if you wanna know ask me! hahaha!

okay i totall absolutely adore my darling even though he say im fat. lol. who cres.

10 reasons why he's the best:

1) he ALWAYS gives in to me (until recently, he keep teasing me. but still gives in (: )

2) he NEVER gets abgry with me! (even if i do something really really bad, like make him hurt till fuck by biting him or whatever)

3) he's totally loyal to me (at least for now)

4) he's willling to spend 8 hours doing nothing ALONE just to send ME home from work cos my legs hurt! <33333

5) he's willing to come all the way to pasir ris (be it car or mrt) to send me anywhere i wanna go or just to spend a pathetic one hour with me.

6) he drops me a message evry single hour withoutfail. (irritating but still it shows he cares)

7) he is willing to drive my friends around. (aww thanks bee)

8)he does give me treats once in a while though its quite rare (:

9) he never lets me feel neglected or inferior and always makes sure that i am the happiest girl around

10) HE BUYS MY SANITARY PADS FOR ME WITHOUT ME ASKING HIM TO. ^^

2009-06-09T00:05:00.003+08:00

jus a random post. i feel so amused when i see my baby boy looking at the real babies, ya the small ones. he'll just stare at them and look so dazed. den he'll say 'they really so small leh. so cute' hahaha. ya la its nothing. but when he says that to me it just makes my heart melt for some reason. lol.

2009-06-08T00:50:00.003+08:00

here to blog again.

sorry no pics, just wanna blog bout ystd night.

well i guess only fh will know what im refering to. i flew into a rage with y bro ystd, tore the shirt he was wearing into two literally, almost whacked him and screamed like a mad bitch until my neighbours called my mum. it was 12 plus in the morning.

unbelievable i know.

i was really angry. i know how everyone fells. my mum my bro. i know they are stressed. how bout me? who thought for me? anyone? no. jus take it that jh is a rotten ass who doesnt care less bout her life. FUCK IT. so what? my mum asked me and my bro all 3 of us jump tgt ystd night/ so what if i died? empty threats. aint i still alive now. so many years has passed since my dad left. from the end of 2004 till now... almost 4 to 5 years?

and who knows how dark my days were in the beginning? having to deal with a depressed mum who talks and attempts suicide all day long? so what if i got angry ystd and almost got myself killed? so what if i was like a mad bitch ystd and my dad had to come down at 1 am in the morning to calm me down? who cares.

who understands what hell im gg through? who knows that i hav 2 fking papers tmr and im fking unprepared? NOBODY, not a fucking person, and im so tired of everything. tired of assholes acting big, tired of assholes thinking they fucking know everything and tired of assholes who scold me for doing something wrong and yet do it themselves. tired of assholes who blame me for theitr own fucking outcome. if you don put in the effort this is what you get. understand?

my pelims im not afraid to say, im the last 20 in school. so what. big deal. xos i didnt put in effort and thats what i got. you don go around blaming everyone for ur pathetic results cos you never gave it your 100%.

and jus to let you know mum is very biased towards you. you may not feel it. but jus observe. why does mumalways ask ou to do things? she thinks highly of you and trusts you more. she finds you more responsible than me. mum has already more or less removed all her hopes from me and put it on you. i know you're stressed, i am too look at her attitude when she talks to me and you. she really puts everything into you now, so don let her down.

im sorry. i know i never fulfiled my part as a sister. i know im a failure. sorry. forgive me please.im trying but i cant help it. i never meant to hit you. of course im concerned for you i jus never showed it. yesterday night was my biggest mistake. its not your fault im at fault too. im sorry.

well as for me, i jus wanna grow up and leave this place.

i would if i could, but some things are way beyond my ability.

2009-06-02T21:09:00.003+08:00

Before I start my revision gonna take some time to update my blog.

Today it wont be bout my unhappiness or complains, I think its time to show a little gratitude to some people who have assisted me along all these time till now. Its time I started showing my appreciation, cos a little encouragement can go a long way, like it has done for me.

This is from the bottom of my heart, and ya though I might have been unhappy with any of you at a certain point of time, I will not forget the help which you have extended to me when I really needed it.

Firstly from my now 2D02 classmates:

BAO HUI: thanks for pei-ing me to and fro school! (: you’ve been like an elder sister to me and I really thank you for waking up my senses at times when I needed it and pushing me on in my studies.

MAN LING: thanks for showing so much concern to me whenever im feeling down. You’ve been a fantastic friend and you really bring a lot of laughter into all our lives.

And yeah, of cos I haven forgotten more.

Jia Jun, Qiu Xuan, Cai Yi, Koon Long, Yenn, Yong Cai who have helped me a lot in my studies too. (: Cheers to you all!

Atikah and Kar Wah for being such great friends. (:

Next are my outside friends. So many. Lol. I wonder how to start.

Next, my princesses.

Jessica, Michelle, Eileen, Jolyn, Wan Yi

We once promised each other that no matter where we went we would always be in contact. And as heaven would have it, all of us are split up. For those who don know,

Jessica – Nanyang Polytechnic

Michelle – Singapore Polytechnic

Eileen – Tampines JC

Jolyn – Temesek Polytechnic

Wan Yi – Raffles Collage

Sometimes I wonder f heaven is making a joke of us. Looking back at the many memories we had now, im sure all of us know, as much as we hate to admit it, we are all changing and slowly but surely, inching apart from each other. We all have our busy timetables and personal commitments so I guess it cant really be helped.

Which is why in times we all manage to meet up together, these short hours would become more precious than ever. I really miss those times back in Sec 3, everything was beautiful and pure.

I’ll remember you

And baby that’s forever true

You’re the one that I’ll always miss

Never thought it would feel like this

I’ll be there for you

No matter what you’re going through

In my heart you’ll always be

Forever baby I’ll remember you

Sun will shine, my friends

Won’t let you cry, my dear

Seeing you shed a tear

Makes my world disappear

You’ll never be alone, in darkness

See my smile, my friend

We are with you, holding hands

You have got to believe

You are my destiny

We’re meant to be your friends

That’s what a friend should be

That’s why memories and pictures are so important. Looking through them now I feel so warm and yeah, I jus stare at the pictures and everything plays back in my head… I love you my girls.

To my girlfriends:

Charmaine, Sharmaine, Vera, Valerie, Michelle

Yeah, I still regard Michelle as one of us. Sadly I have no idea what she has become. Well michelle, if you are reading this, we still regard you as one of us and we really wish to see you again, cos we haven been able to contact with you or you end up MIA the time we are supposed to meet and we will never get any news from you.

For the rest of girls, well, at least Charmaine and Valerie are in the same school (Temesek Polytechnic), and Sharmaine and me in Ngee Ann. Vera is in Tampines JC.

We all rarely meet, cos a lot of these people never bother to reply messages and are EXTREMELY DIFFICULT to contact. However our friendship is still going on strong and its really heartening to see occasional efforts made for the whole group to meet up. You all have given me great and unforgettable times in secondary school, and I really laugh at the times when I think back of our crazy lovable 4e6’07! Really miss all of you crazy nuts!

And of course dearest Sharmaine who is not from our class, but has been one of my besties ever since Sec 1. She has brought to me more than countless trouble, and made me yell at her sometimes because of her ridiculously irrational thinking. BUT she has brought me much laughter as well, and I really love this girl a lot. Thanks babe, you really rock my life and made it very colourful! Yes, literally!

To my dearest Li Lin:

She’s more like my mother, so I didn’t put her under girlfriends. HAHA. Nah, but she’s a really sensible who sets me thinking straight. My confidant, best friend, answer sheet, soul mate, whatever, you name it. Well never thought we’d hit off so well. We were in the same class since Sec 1 but only grew closer when it was drawing towards the end of Sec 3. And at that time she was the last person I thought I’d have contact with. But look at now. She’s probably the closest friend I have, the most frequently met up to shop and chat, and probably we have the latest news of each other. Lol. Definitely never expected it to turn out this way.

Thanks babe for always being there for me listening to my nonsense. Your company is the best, really, and I can just tell you anything under the sun. Knowing you is my fortune and really hope this friendship will never have an ending.

Lastly, to the most important man in my life:

Khoo Foo Hong

Things didn’t start out well for us at all, I was uncertain and so was he. Slowly and gradually feelings became stronger. From strangers to lovers. From nothing to everything. Amazing? Ya I think so too. He has become the most important person in my life, someone I cannot live without. Strange. I never ever thought I’d find a guy this good.

My dearest hubby, I really want to thank you for staying by my side and encouraging me on. You are the greatest achievement I have, the one mistake that blossomed into this amazing love story. I might not have anything in this world, but finding you is my only accomplishment. As the saying goes, 每个成功的男人背后都有个女人, 每个幸福的女人身边有个疼她的男人.

Thank you for tolerating all my nonsense rubbish pinching beatings scoldings (sounds like hell eh). Thanks for sending me back everyday though we live so far apart. Thanks for being so loving and tolerant towards me.

Believe me, no words can say how much you mean to me, and how much I ove you and how thankful I am to have you in my life. Cos you arethe only light and love in my world and I know I cant live without you ever since that day I know you are the man of my life.

2009-06-01T00:36:00.003+08:00

feeling kinda blue right now, cant really see the prospects of my future.

this afternoon i asked my mum if i had any educational insurance. she replied yes. i had my hopes lifted, thinking i could persue my overseas degree without having to worry so much. then she continued ' im not going to give it to you unless you enter NUS or NTU. if you want to study in any other uni besides these two you pay yourself cos i only recognize these 2 unis.' WTF. can someone tell me. is this being fair to me? her reason was 'your dad don give me enough money. i hav no choice but to pay for your sec school and poly. so your education insurance money i will take unless you enter NUS or NTU'.

sometimes i don know if heaven is making a fool of me. cos i know there is no way i can enter these 2 unis. i wanna go overseas and study. why? why cant i? why can some people have the blessing to be born financially stable, not having to worry if they hav to work part time to pay for themselves or what. she's my mum, and she wans me to pay for my own uni fees. nothing wrong. except she only recognises TWO unis. since you think its so easy to study you try entering these 2 la.

you work at airport also complain that you don wan study, study v dissicult. so what makes you think that studying in poly is any easier? everyone has their own problems, jus because im a student oesnt mean i lead a problem free life.

some people are born smart others need to work. some people are born without having to work a single day in their lives. im trying not to complain bout life, but i cant. why must everything happen to me? fucking eyesight, fucking parents and now i cant even hav my insurance money to allow me to go overseas to study.

cos my mum wans the money. i wont say for herself, more for the family. but still its not fair. why do shows always hav a happy ending? why other people'e parents can get back together again but mine cant? why i cant seem to find happiness in life anymore.

i saw baby's resukt slip jus now, for 3 sems. it made me feel so ashamed f myself. so embarassed. so inferior and for that moment i felt as if i were nothing compared to him. a big zero.he has everything i don. we are the exact opposites.

he has perfect eyesight, mine cant be worse.

he has a wonderful and complete family, whereas i will never ever see my dad mum me and bro sitting at one table evr again (unless divorce of course)

he has meals with his family every sunday, sit down and chat. i cant remember when i last ate at home.

he has excellent grades, mine? shit. worse den shit.

i really feel nothing to him sometimes. a zero is prolly an understatement, i think a negative one million. i cant even win him in games. not even games.

don you all think he's too good for me? ya, i think so too.

mayb we ought to do something bout it.he should find someone more like him. yes, he deserves better.

i know what to do.

2009-05-31T13:14:00.002+08:00

HELLO! i know i have mia-ed for SUPER LONG! but im back to update before starting my studying proper. many overdue events and photos, but i shall jus upload a few and what happened in the past 2 days.

saturday went ECP! great dinner, i LOVE MUTTON SATAY! next time go there, its seafod! <33

a few of my fav pics taken in the past 2 weeks (:

yesterday went to LEI GARDEN at CHIJMES for my grandmama 80th bday! ((: great food, 10 course dinner and kinda grew closer to my cousins since we were all at one table. baby tagged along and had apparently left a good impression since all my cousins seemed to like him. hahaha. and i was wearing a dress! LOL. still got a few pics not with me in my aunt's cam, will get it asap. anw all my relatives all come and ask me stand up cos i was wearing a dress, like FINALLY. hahahah! awesome. and baby fetched me and bro home. ((: love you hubby!

ok i cant upload the pic again. never mind i will upload in FB soon. (: seeya all!

2009-05-15T21:38:00.002+08:00

darling says:

I PASSED MY DRIVING TEST LE!!! (:

total kenna 12points. LOL.
4 to abrupt lane change which i didnt notice. haha
8 to the most ridiculous mistake which is nt horning ppl who are in my way to siam. LOL.

baby i'll drive you ard everyday. (: muacks*
i love you forever. <33

2009-05-14T16:12:00.002+08:00

jishui needs a miracle now.

something to make her believe school is worth going to.

something to make her believe these friends are worth being nice to.

something to make her believe these friends are not gossiping behind her back.

something to make her believe all that she is doing is worth.

something to make her believe that she shouldnt jus end her life now.

don ask me why i've been feeling so tired lately. everyone has gone through it last sem and now its my turn. i only hav myself to blame for failing my els in the first sem. failures and obstacles ae supposed to make you stronger. why does it keep happening to me. why do i keep facing such ridiculous setbacks. why am i demoralised so easily lately. why does all these hav to happen to me. backstabbing fucked up friends, fucked up family, fucked up eyesight, fucked up grades, fucked up attitude. so what, who really understands how the fuck i feel now. how frustrated it can be not to be able to see properly. how i dread going back home. how much i wish i can have my own house and not be cooped up in a fucking small room sleeping on the floor with my brother sleeping on the bed. how i hate seeing my mum so biased towards my brother. how i hate to see her attitude difference in talking to me and my brother. how i really struggle and try to do well but my eyesight is so frustrating. how i never want to rely on anyone else except myself to do things, but i jus cant. i know that everyone in poly is selfish, every man for himself. yes i fucking know that. so if i don have friends to help me out in poly how do i help myself? i cant even see the ppt sitting at the fucking first row. mayb things would be better if im blind. at least i know that if i learn braille, everyone there is probably as good as blind and we are even.

who really understands. coming out to this society, with a visual handicap. the stares people give you when you show the card on the bus and board it foc, the stares the drivers give you when they know you're taking it for free. the fear of waking up one say not knowing if you can still see. the anger when you desperately want to do things yourself, without disturbing others cos i know they're irritated.

what can i do. im so helpless by myself.

what should i do.

2009-05-08T22:40:00.003+08:00

Chloe
The name Chloe is a baby girl name. The name Chloe comes from the Greek origin. In Greek The meaning of the name Chloe is: blooming.

Benjamin
The name Benjamin is a baby boy name. The name Benjamin comes from the English origin. In English The meaning of the name Benjamin is: Right-hand son. Benjamin was the youngest son of Jacob in the Bible. Famous Bearer: Dr. Benjamin Spock.

some names i liked as well...

Alexis
The name Alexis is a baby girl name. The name Alexis comes from the English origin. In English The meaning of the name Alexis is: Helper; defender. Variant of Alexander.

Skyla
The name Skyla is a baby girl name. The name Skyla comes from the Dutch origin. In Dutch The meaning of the name Skyla is: from the Dutch name Schuyler, meaning scholar, shield.

Rhys
The name Rhys is a baby boy name. The name Rhys comes from the Welsh origin. In Welsh The meaning of the name Rhys is: Ardour; rashness.

Ashlyn
The name Ashlyn is a baby girl name. The name Ashlyn comes from the English origin. In English The meaning of the name Ashlyn is: Meadow of ash trees.

Skyler
The name Skyler is a baby boy name. The name Skyler comes from the English origin. In English The meaning of the name Skyler is: Phonetic spelling of Schuyler.

Kyla
The name Kyla is a baby girl name. The name Kyla comes from the Hebrew origin. In Hebrew The meaning of the name Kyla is: Victorious.

Jax
The name Jax is a baby boy name. The name Jax comes from the Spanish origin. In Spanish The meaning of the name Jax is: Masculine form of the Greek name Hyacinth 'alas.'.

hahahah. this is a super random post. some of the names nice leh. feel like getting an english name. and benjamin and chloe looks pretty not meaningful, might be changing names for future kids. lol. i know i bo liao la. well its better den playing RC right. LOL.

2009-05-07T21:36:00.002+08:00

hey guys.

sorry for lack of updates! really wanted to update but somehow cant load pics into blogger.
super angry. will be changing to LJ soon, once i hav figured out how to use it.

I CANT FIND MY FUCKING STATS BOOK! ))): AND THERE'S STATS TOMORROW! ))): AND I HAVE HW TO DO! ))))))):

oh well. whatever la.

well HAPPY BDAY AARON CHUA. (: though he cant see it but who cares. nice nice aaron sent me and fh to pioneer. lol. :D

been feeling very at peace lately, jus happy and being myself and starting to love this class again. :D cheers!

2009-04-29T22:09:00.002+08:00

after talking everything out makes me feel better today.

not like all the bloody rumours going on behind. fuck it.

im just gonna be myself. who cares bout what others say. you are you. just like i am me. im not gonna be someone im not. im gonna jus be the old me, im gonna indulge myself in my fairytale story books again. absolutely loving it.

i am making an effort. im trying not to sleep in class, im reading more trying to get my vocab back and at the same time indulging myself in the fantasy worlds of others, making reality unreal. im not playing psp (trying not to), and i actually have notes in my books! hahaha! and im feeloing good.im trying not to rely on anyone because of my handicap.

thanks babe, you make everything seem better now. <33

2009-04-28T22:19:00.002+08:00

okay im here to post a not so gloomy post. hahhaha!

basically im feeling very at peace tonight. i don know why.met darling at bout 4 plus. pms-ed a little. lol. well went to airport and simply had a really good time. we didnt do anything. jus ate and talked. and it was really enjoyable.

no masks of any sort, no othing. jus myself talking bout anything and everything. so free, i don have to be careful of what i say and yes, its moments like this that makes me so thankful that you are in my life, why im holding on to this relationship and not let go.

2009-04-28T15:47:00.003+08:00

mayb now after everyone has started poly they will inderstand how i feel. how busy it is. how they themselves are experiencing the suffiocation and lack of time for anything lese, especially if you are attached.

the practicality of the people, how selfish and material people can be, especially since everyone wants to do not well, but be the best. its not your choice if you wan to be who you are or who you are not. cos life is like that.

recently my posts have been so bitter and angry. this is who i have become. damn it.

poly is a place for friendship suicide.

2009-04-26T22:22:00.002+08:00

alright im backfrom my holiday in bintan and totall in no mood to return to school and reality.

school is becoming such a dread. hate going to school see all the masked people and of course im being very much of a hypocrite myself. i do wan to be true to people and not hurt anybody, but im not the only one playing this game sadly.

still cant get my mind off some stuff. holiday wasnt that great either actually. sighs.

come on life. turn around. be good again. go back to the class we used to be. why did things ever turn out like that.

jiayou jiahui. its really time to prove.

2009-04-22T22:49:00.002+08:00

i really feel so fucked up now.

first i just got someone into trouble. hope all is fine ba. im really sorry. then i think im really detached from D02.
its not their fault, its jus that i don wanna join them i guess.
they did ask me out.
its always at the last minute i never feel like joining them.

no offence to anyone out there, you all are great. the problem is with me.

im not going to make excuses anymore for anything. be it npcc or class outings or whatsoever. i jus wanna focus on my studies.

i thought i had friends but from the groupings today i can see i have none.

im not blaming anyone.
i jus wanna study real hard cos i know everyone thinks im a hopeless worm.

i have calculated a total of 3.6average gpa to pull my average gpa for the whole 3 years to 3. cos first year i really let myself down and did wrong.

if only i could have normal vision i wouldnt be so needy and reliant, afraid i cant catch up on my work, taking my own notes in class instaed of keep irritating others and asking them whats this and that.

so what if god gave me a really good bf but i seem to be losing my control on my affairs?

if i could freeze ime, i would freeze it at sec3.

2009-04-21T23:16:00.009+08:00

HELLO!

i know i have been mia-ing myself for quite long. lol. meant to blog but time doesnt permit me to do so till now so here i am. hahaha.

alrighto, lets start.

21 april2009, tuesday

today happens to be our first year anniversary! <333>

HAPPY FIRST YEAR PRECIOUS!

i typed alot but all gone. fuck blogger man. i gg to change to LJ soon.

the pics were taken at yuki yaki.

the ice cream

durian and choc mixed, idea thanks to mich (:

fh made my name! sweet eh.

darling's masterpiece. ^^

pics of us!

and more....

this is BENJI! <333>

some missing pics from eileen's bday! hahahaha!

19th april 2009, sunday

sunday went to tiong bahru meet my aunt pass her stuff. hahaha. had a great time with her. then went over to my grandama house and darling abgus was there! still as cuteeeeeeee as ever and can talk alot more too. ((: love!

then went to meet girlfriends at orchard to watch 17 again again! yes again! meant i watched it twice la. lol. had dinner at the jap pasta place and home sweet home cos school was early and far for me and mich the next day.

oh and jojo was jumping when she foumd her crepe. hahahaha. :D

17 april, friday

went kite flying at WCP, damn kite got sruck and had a great bonding session with mainey & JH. really love you two man! <33>

2009-04-21T22:45:00.009+08:00

darling says:

HAPPY 1st YEAR BABY LAOPO <33

its our 1st year together and we'll spent countless of years together. I LOVE YOU BABY <33

reached marina square abit early and walk ard before starting to attack the buffet. LOL. sat down there from 5pm till 8.30. we broke our record set by 3hrs. x) lol. drama happened at there as there was power fault with some appliance 2 times and guess wad. lol. its the table we are sitting that is giving them problems. haha. they offered us to change table but we was quite full le. lol. eat abit at the next table and changed table again. this time was for ice-cream!! (: at first we blur blur dunno how to make our own ice cream but after trying was quite successful. yupp. the ice cream was fabulous! had loads of fun making them. x)

baby gave me a liverpool's torres cushion and a liverpool water bottle. (: was in a shock when i saw it at first. baby went jp while i was in class. lol.

here's the pics of my prezzie. (:

I LOVE YOU BABY <33

muacks*

1st year n counting. (:

2009-04-17T21:24:00.002+08:00

darling says:

today went outing at west coast park! met baby at je and went to meet jh and sharmaine at chinese garden for lunch. baby ate porridge, i ate ba gu tei. x) quite nice. yupp.

took bus to west coast park after that. weather was quite hot at the time we reached with little wind. was worried if the kite can fly but in the end it was successful. (: flew for ard 15mins before disaster strucked!!

our kite was stucked on the tree. tried not to break the string but was nt successful. in the end string broke and kite was still up there. we were hoping that the kite would drop down by its own. kept throwing branches attempting to hit the kite. LOL. results: unsuccessful. in the end a strong wind blew and the kite untangled itself from the tree! mission accomplished! haha.

went to slack at mac after that and walk to west coast plaza and found a great shop for all. nike factory outlet store. lol. prices was cheap than retail price by 40%. for those who wanna go there's shuttle bus service from clementi mrt bus stop. had dinner before gg back home.

yupp. thats bout it for the day. (: below is a few pics on our mission and the day. yupp. (:

2009-04-16T21:18:00.002+08:00

17 again is a must watch!

hahahah. not because of zac effron but the storyline is pretty humourous and touching one. do catch it ya! watched at cine, before that went to support mich doing lag day for SP. >.< ahhh NP the best no argues bout that!

cy is now in my class!
i know i abit slow la, but still it came as a slight shock to me. LOL. yay~
welcome to the pack.

quite looking forward to school reopening. lol. keeps me busy give me things to do and keep my mind off some stuff...

2009-04-14T21:59:00.002+08:00

today CYCLING at ECP with mainey and jh! :D happiness! rented a double bike with darling and was abit scared he'll be bored or burdened with me behind cos i don dare go too fast. =x but in the end aint that bad was rather fun except my butt damn cramp after that. lol. ate at carl's junior for the first time and couldnt finish the fries and burger cos was super duper BIG! darling couldnt finish either so ya it was really huge.
went to giant kai kai and headed to popula get some stuff to prepare fpor school reopening. quite looking forward to it actually, cos this sem if i pass all my modules im back to the usual timetable with my classmates. ((:

MY FREAKING STATS TEXT COST $48 LA! )))):

2009-04-13T21:55:00.005+08:00

hello everyone! im here to blog! after so long i know. LOL. :D well reason being i have been really busy playing harvest moon lately, online only to read my walkthrough. really addictive game i play non stop la. lol. super nice, and darl was jealous lor. keep saying 'got harvest moon don need boyfriend liao ah.' LOL right. silly ass. hahahaa. :D but i promised darling i'll blog today so here i am.

okay for today met darling to cut hair! hahahaha! :D he took longer den me lor. and ya i finally have fringe le. but very curly so i still clip it up. lol. went to chinese garden there wanted to eat ba kut teh but not open. )): but we found a super dee duper nice porridge store! cheap and good! and its really very very nice! hahaha. very smooth and not lumpy. and the you tiao they give is like one long one instead of the pathetic cut up ones. and was on the tv show 'pai pai zhan cha cha kan'. so yupp. so happy! hahaha. im so going there to eat again. my century egg porridge only cost 2.50, with egg 3 bucks. ^^ not bad le la. lol. really nice next time anyone wan try tell me i bring you all. ((:
then went to eat dessert at some desert stall near the cut hair place. quite nice, also value for money. sadly its all in the west. ): but since school starting i think can make time go there more often. more convenient from school.(x
then went to jp walk walk, had dinner there then train-ed to joo koon and back to pasir ris. yupp.

*takecare felix & eugene. finally going to be a mature man. :D*

12 april 2009

didnt do much, went to expo kai kai for awhile only. lol. there was times bookfair like AGAIN, because like everytime go there also have one. lol. went to john little sale! like aubnty. lo. we bought loads of FOOD! :DD and jus nice i bring transparent bag den have to stuff everything inside cos baby bag no space and the food were half mine anyway. but it looked a little awful cos well its transparnt and it stuffed with food! LOL. then slack abit at expo and went back watch css finals. expcted outcome so ya. nothing much that shocked me, expect my dearest joselin didnt do well. >.< but she's still the best! (:

11 april 2009

happy early bday to my cousin sean! (: time flies la, he's like 10 already. the last time i remember really talking to him was when he was a babay? lol. im not exggerating, im really not close to my dad's side of the family till recently. lol. then ya. had a great bbq at my uncle's wionderful house. its really super nice, well he is rich la so ya of cos its nice. lol. my cousin got her own room lor and its really super nice. a very girly room which i suprisingly like, very cosy and odd shaped, my ideal room. haiz. when am i getting my baobei room back? okay aside with that, my uncle cooked 2 huge bowls of spegetthi and it was nice. didnt know he could even cook. LOL. yupp. their kids are really lucky, good family, modern easy going and loving parents and ya theyare well off too. both of the guys are my grandmother's sons but my uncle and my dad are so different. i'd swop anything to be my uncle's kids. oh well. it was sean's bday but their meternal grandmama got all 3 of the siblings a DS each. haiz. somee kids really have all the luck yeah? lol. then had ice cream cake which was fab though it was seriously melted cos my aunt took it out for too long(scared hard ma). lol. they put those trick candles which kept relighting and it totally amazed all my younger cousins and nephews (YES NEPHEWS. i didnt know they existed. god im an aunt already. and i think i have more than i know.) lol. quite amusing la see them trying to get the flame out. but i think their slivia got in the cake. >.< but never mind la, im open. lol.

tmr going cycle. ((: sat im going NPAP. i still have 2 tix. anyone interested? :D

2009-04-09T21:41:00.003+08:00

today ent lilin house play WII! hahahaha! super fun can! lol. play till my hand damn tired now. her house really fully equipped sia. got the punching thingy for boxing, wheel for driving game and gun foe shooting! LOL. :D power hor. lol.

play my av cooking mama, which was quite fun la. lol and house of dead 3 was GOOD! and ya wii sports wasnt bad and mario kart was terrible cos i couldnt control and kept ending up last. )): hahaha. okay la hand super suan le. shall stop.

i love ele tan! <33

2009-04-08T23:04:00.010+08:00

here are the kite flying pics! decided to do it in a different post if not very laggy. there were like sooooo many kids and we tore one kite by accident. ): the boy jus charged at us and our string cut his kite. lol. poor guy. the pics a little disorganized. sorry. very difficult to organize got too many pics. hahaha. the kite costs 15 bucks with string! so ex right! hahaha! then bee but extra string meaning another 5 bucks! >.< but was fun la! lilin kute fly super high! pikachu kite! (:

then we went iluma. plenty of screaming people cos of that david guy. so scary. lol. big gbig hugeeeeeeeee arcade! super nice super new! got ice cream catching machine leh! you all fee must go there walk walk. its not fully up yet but still can go look la. hahaha. got this super longgggg escalator from 1st flooe to 4th floor! long can! look down legs jelly. hahahah.

pics! (:

finally dinner at seafood harvet! (: bee treated me half, and it was delicious! hahaha. and pretty much reasonable for a dinner meal, cos dinners normally more ex. whoo hoo~ love day outs like these. <33

okay as for today went to iluma again to watch shopaholic! funny and quite cute, a very girly movie! lol. saw lilin and hc! so qiao. watched same movie at same time somemore. lol. same row also but different seats. ): oh and i finally bought my transparent bag! happiness! ((:

2009-04-08T22:47:00.008+08:00

okay, pics for jess' 18th! (: its not all la, still have but very lazy upload all so these few will do. (: anyway on that day we made the cake! but don have the photo cos its with jo and i don have it. lol. we had steamboat, which was fab and pool-ed after that. i didnt play, was super sleepy. >.<

HSCNPCC NOCS'06 SIMPLY ROCKS TO THE MAX MAX MAX! <33

eileen and veto's butt! :D

at the steamboat...

and these are my lovely lovely peeps! (: oh notice the knife jess used to cut cake. like parang sia! LOL. :DD

2009-04-07T23:08:00.003+08:00

darling says:

today went kite flying!! (: guess the place. haha. marina barrage. a very good place to fly kite. wind big big. LOL. baby will upload the pics later. yupp. spent almost 3hrs there flying kite. if you don have kite don worry can get one there. (:

after kite flying went to bugis to shop shop n shop n dinner. bought a pair of black converse shoe. yupp. went walk ard bugis street and decided to explore Iluma the new shopping centre at bugis. the design is very nice and there have a very big toy catching playland and arcade. LOL. jus nice today david archuleta is at the shopping centre having a autograph signing session. the crowd is unbelievable. LOL. went to have dinner at seafood harvest which was nice!. (: went walk ard more after dinner and went back home. yupp.

thats all for the day. (: baby will have more info later. stay tuned. x)

2009-04-06T20:50:00.003+08:00

today went to watch SHINJUKU INCIDENT (hope i got the spelling right) with bee at the cathay. i cant say its a total waste of my money la, but it was bad enough. it was violent! )): and i saw blood splurting out of somewhere, and i saw 2 hands beind chopped off! D: AND it was mostly in jap and the subtitles were pretty smal so i couldnt really catch what was going on. >.<

p.s. 爱我别走

2009-04-05T23:29:00.001+08:00

today darling did a very very disgraceful thing.

a disgrace to all men.

haiz. please reflect khoo foo hong, im ashamed of you.

2009-04-01T23:03:00.014+08:00

hey peeps! sorry for lack of updates, cos my house has been sooooo messy lately, i cant seem to find the time and energy to blog. >.< ao anyway im here to blog now la. (i typed a whole chunk but it disappeared so ya, i cant rmb and am too lazy to re-type, so shall make do with this.)

3rd april 2009

yesterday went out in the noon, and me and darling were so bored we sat outside kino at bugis to play psp. -.- saw mich and jo for abit. lol. met mainey and jingheng for steamboat. (: ate alot. ^^ really even though they really seriously irritate me to the max, hanging out with them can be quite fun. (: after steamyboat went to esplande! been really long since i last went there, hahaha. saw some piano thingy concert and we decided to give it a go. welllll.... it was BORING. ): only the second piece was nice, its called 'return to your heart'. the other 2 was simply sleeping pills. darling kept laughing at me cos i kept yawning. bit it was reallyyyyyyy broring. ): hahaha! then went to the esplande rooftop and our hiding place had become a bar! it looks super nice, in the night sky and soft music playing, jus so relaxing. and there were big cushion-y cushions! looks sooooo comfortable! we were saying my birthday we go there, cos w'll all be of age, even mainey. ^^

pictures for the day!

1st april 2009

happy april fools! hahaha! i fooled darling FOUR TIMES! :D so proud of myself. lol. and i kena fool by eileen once. ): hahaha. anyway went out with lilin and darling. supposed to go k but end up the food took so long and ate into our time so we gave it up. went shopping at carrefore as we decided to go picnic-ing at marina barriage! ((: super cool! end up we didnt but anything, ordered pizza. LOL. >.<

okay this was like super dee duper LONG ago! on jo's bday which was 12 march, but i jus got the pics recently, so yupp. here they are!

okay will upload jess' birthday pics and details as soon as i get it. (:

life is so unfair, yet it jus makes it up to you in some way. im feeling so drained right now. cos i don know what you all are actually thinking of me, and i hope im thinking too much when i type this. 知人知面不知心. that is something i have learnt over the years and much more so, now after so many things have happened, it makes me much more wary of those around me, even those closest to me. who can i trust ? who are those true to me? who is jus using me to get what they wan?

life is full of questions. life has given me probably so many setbacks i would have given up on myself if it had not been for those around me supporting me, im not pretty, im oversized, i don have a complete family, my mum and dad are people whom you guys can never imangine living with, i have major eye problems with the possibility that i may go blind one day. with all these setbacks and of course many more, im not afraid to deny the many times i had suicidal thoughts and jus giving up. cos life jus seems so hopeless, times seems to stay still and never move.

yet life sent me him, that someone who changed my life so drastically, that it makes me feel guilty jus at the thought of leaving him. he has made my life complete, he made me appreciate myself kore than i ever did, he is my pillar of strength when i am feeling at the lowest point in my life, he is the one who picked me up when i fell, he is the boy who cried so badly when i wanted to leave him, that boy who made me beloeve in miracles when i lost all hope, the one person who showered me with so much love and care, the one person who never ever lost his temper with me. which is why even as im typing all these now i can feel my tears flow down in graditude.

and i might not show, you guys may say im very bad towards him, but he is the one i really love, and at times when i think, should i ever lose him, what will become of me? i think i'll be at a loss.

treasure what you have now, cos you don know what life holds for you. thank god for letting him ebter my life, to make my imperfect world perfect, to add a little colour and love into my hopeless life. i don care if people say we are disgusting or touchy or bitchy or whatever, because this is MY life and you all don know what i've been through, what aginy it is to be ME, and jus how grateful i am to have him with me.

i love you.

2009-04-01T22:01:00.002+08:00

darling says:

today met up with baby and lilin. yupp. intending to go k box but decided to push it back. lol. cos the timing was awkward. decided to go carrefour to get the things we need cos we decided to pinic at marina barrage.

went walking ard carrefour looking for mat, cup, tissues. gt everything there. yupp. was quite fun. lol. x) was thinking if to buy stuff over to eat but abit mafan so gt a idea to call canadian pizza delivery.

had pinic at marina marrage which the pics will be uploaded by baby later. (: look out for the nice pics. (:

tats abt it for today. yupp.

2009-03-31T21:19:00.005+08:00

today met baby for lunch, with tze lee! ate at popeye's. good meal,i felt so hungry! hahaha. then did my IS enrolment. took event management, class P09! anyone same class as me? (:

then went back for np training. things have changed, i feel that nothing is the same and the motivation to go back just keeps dropping. come on! hscnpcc used to be your life jiahui! don give up! me eileen and mich all wore RED shoes! ^^

im in my bro's room now. weird? no. cos its gonna be ,t habitat from now on. haiz. things have been so hectic and jus moodless lately.
when i go home, i used to jus turn in my room and put my stuff. now, i walk halfway to my room, and i remember its not my room anymore, and i u-turn to go to my study room where my desk is. AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH~
i really cant describe the feeling. my bro is schooling on weekdays, so its gonna be damn inconvenient for me to talk late on weekdays, especially now during our hols.

i feel like im trapped in prison. save me please.

2009-03-29T23:17:00.002+08:00

recently my blog posts a little wordy, cos never tae pics. >.< sorry bout that, will try to upload more pics in future posts. hahahaha.

nothing much today, saw graham and yk! LOL. it was such a nice familiar feeling, i really miss those days back in sec school! really seriously. ):

i miss my dearest 4e6'07!

2009-03-28T22:24:00.002+08:00

soooooooooo long never blog already!

hahaha. shall update a little.wasworking at daiso past few days doing stock take. was quite exhausting but quite fun too, though a lot of miscounting. did my first overnight job at ps! hahaha. it was damn funny! after we were dismissed at 6am, me baby and lilin were totally shagged la! and we started spouting nonsense! all the crap. too tired la, all the rubbish just kept pouring out. LOL. :D

today went to buy PSP! finally! ((: very long and alot of complications arose but thankfully all was settled. i bought black and my bro bought white. cos these were the only 2 colours left. >.< i wanted red de la. but never mind, at least i got a red mumu dog pouch, at only $13. thanks to my godmama!
den went for dinner at my aunt's stall, hokkien mee, fried kuay tiao and oyster egg! nice sia! first time i visit her stall after so long. lol.

alright im lazy to update more alr. seeya all!

2009-03-25T23:14:00.002+08:00

darling says:

recently for the past two days has been working with baby from morning till evening on stock taking for daiso. lol. was quite tiring. long long time never stand for long hours le. LOL. dunno if gg for tmr's last stock take at plaza sing which most part of the money will come from. lol.

had greenhouse cafe for dinner today. (: long time since we partronise that ( NO GST ) cafe. x) save quite alot. the food quality there is nice. for those who haven try can try to have a go. haha. their service was execellent!

thats abt it for today. lol. need some quality rest tonite to recover. tmr will be gg buy psp with baby. (: yupp.

2009-03-24T21:18:00.003+08:00

jus read mich woo's blog and came across this line 'love the one who loves you'.

hmm.random la, but it us leads me to think.

the one you love most may not love you the most

and the one who loves you the most may not be the one you oove the most

make sense? hahaha. well for me i guess its jus logical. no point loving the one who loves you, its jus meaningless and empty. you don know what you wan.

and whoever would imangine that god would let this silly guy, the first boy i ever got into a relationship with might jus be the one for me. loves! <33

just a random post. lol. been working lately and im tired! ): oh. and i love lilin baby! ((:

2009-03-21T21:56:00.002+08:00

darling says:

happy 11th month my precious baby! (: time really flies and our love has bloom. <33 i love you baby. today went to baby's hse to celebrate 11th month in a very different very which we concluded is the most interesting way of celebrating it. x) baby has blogged abt the details. one more part is walking in the rain to catch a cab. LOL.

had cafe cartel for dinner. (: their service quite enthu. lol. walk ard the shopping centre for awhile before heading home. yupp.

11month seems so far but its just the start of somthing new. <33 i believe our love will last till forever. baby ur the missing jigsaw puzzle of my life. you complete my life. <33 additional bonus 2 jigsaw puzzles would be reserved for ben ben n chole when they land on earth. (:

woaini forever baby <33
muacks*

2009-03-21T21:11:00.002+08:00

HAPPY 11TH MONTH TO DARLINGGGGGG! <33

ah ha! 11months! really its not that a long period of time i know, its not like 11 years or what but really cant believe that we walked so far! judging from the start of our relationship till now, things have changed and ya things are much more stable now. though i hasd some issues yesterday... but forget it la, i guess a relationship is full of sacrifices in all means ba. lol.

looking forward to 210409... then it will be ONE YEA?R! one more month to go. once i had a friend that told me, counting the number of monhs is meaningless. count the number of YEARS. then see how far you can go. and i think its meaningful too. one more month to my FIRST! ((: so what if its like 40 plus months but the relationship and feeling is like not even a year? jus wan things to keep going this way.

thanks love for all you've done for me. i can see your effort and changes you've made to humour me. i love you bee. *muacks.
so long never write this kinda mushy things le. LOL.

today supposed to go www with hc OR sentosa with claaa. end up didnt go for both. LOL. cos i wanted to spend this day with baby alone. thou its jus like any other saturdays we spent. he came to my house with lunch. today even worse ah, slack around till SLEEP! and we slept like from 2.45 to 5.45? horrible right! ): this is how we spent our 11th month! lol. >.< but it was jus so nice and peaceful. it mihght be a simple thing but it really means alot to me. jus hugging each other and dozing off in each other's arms are jus some of the simple luxuries you can enjoy in life.

AND BABY WROTE ME A 310 WORD REPORT FOR NOT SENDING ME GOODNIGHT MESSAGE YSTD. LOL. :D so silly.

happy 11th month again laogong.

2009-03-20T09:16:00.002+08:00

results out.

cleared all thankfully.but did very badly.sighs. at least i cleared all.
gg for my eye check up soon.

its kinda stressful everyone is doing so well and im struglinf behind.

its a new year, new sem.

next sem will be a better one. JYJY everyone!

2009-03-19T23:03:00.004+08:00

today went to buy sneakers! soooo happy. my bro bought the one i wanted to buy so i got another pair of red one! nice nice? ((: totally love it. im gg to change shoelaces so no shoelaces on it. lol. i bet jess will love my shoes! hahaha! :D

went to camp on sunday,didnt have time to blog past few days. okay camp as like soooo weird cos i didnt have my girls staying overnight with me. ))): michelle went to thailand and jojo is in hokkaido! gonna miss them. the sec1s are seriously... im speechless. wonder if the unit can survive with such people. and probably as you get older the younger just seems like super duper irritating. oh well... sighs. hope the spirit of HSCNPCC can be found. really love the unit so so much.

den on monday went to watch disney on ice! after my camp. (: it was great la, though if we had preimum seats would be like 1000000 times better. they had kids to go up sit on a lovely carriage during the performance! so jealous can! >.< didnt manage to catch any pics during the performance cos too bright, but it was really a great show. all the girls were dressed up as little princesses! hahaha. so cute. then right, got some really guai lannnn people la. SERIOUSLY. they bought tix for our seats ($29.90) then they went down to the higher priced tix area sit can! wapiang eh! faint la. first part of show all the kids crowd at barrier (we at second floor), then like blocking me and fh view so we had to keep adjusting. den after that during the break they moved down! fuck right. so totally NO intergrity and bastards. and its like almost the whole first row empty. -.- den also got people from the back move down for better seats. so total like TURN OFF. spoiler la really. but me and fh stayed at our seats though the temptation to move down was strong. we aint bastards. don know what the parents becoming now. dumbass. NO INTERGRITY. okay whatever la, they totally spoil my day.

the ice skating ring

i bought a mickey cup! baby said the ice look like the brain. LOL. a little la i guess. but he was super damn sweet to me okay! he really eat all the ice for me! and its like those thick bits of ice and really tasteless kind, which i totally didnt wan to eat. he finished it ALL! till the cup could be closed la. but it was damn nice of him! den his whole mouth soooo numb. see le so heart pain. thanks darling, you'rew the best best bestieee! <33 i love you!

some ransom pics before the show

2009-03-18T20:52:00.002+08:00

darling says:

baby is at her ah ma's hse for the being. yupp will be gg home tmr. today went to seoul garden and have buffet from 12.15 to 2.45. yupp was intending to sit till 4pm but we concluded we were bloated by then. LOL.

decided to catch a movie at cini. lol. mall cop. (: was full of laughter the movie. baby rated 2.5/5 stars. LOL. yupp. went walk ard after the movie and sent baby back her ah ma's hse. (: reached home at bout 7.45. yupp. tats bout it for the day.

2009-03-13T15:31:00.002+08:00

totally in love with this song.

you raise me up by connie talbot

really didnt like this song but after hearing her sng it, my heart really jus melted. her voice is so pure and sincere. it jus touches me so much. really can jus feel that special feeling when i hear this song. her voice might not be as mature as the adult male singers like josh groban or westlife, but there is something special about her, that really makes me feel so emotional when i hear her version of you raise me up. and she's only like 6 or 7 when she sang this.

hope you all like it as much as i do.

2009-03-12T23:14:00.002+08:00

HAPPY 18TH JO JOLYN! ((:

shall update when i get the pics.

` i wan things to always remain this way.

2009-03-12T02:29:00.002+08:00

suddenly feel like super sian. its like 2.30 in the morning and im still awake. so gonna be like a random and wordy post, if you not interested in my life i recommend you don read. it might bore you to death.

somany thoughts gg throygh my mind, so many things im thinking of...
kinda like im reflecting on the past 17 years of my life.

strange i should be thinking of my life now.. but still, everyone will have a day when they reflect right?

my ambition evolved alot since i was a kid. from teacher to lawyer to author to my current one, DJ. however this dream of mine jus seems so so so far apart from me, almost out of reach. i don know what i wan with my future, its kinda like i already have a fixed mindset that im gg to be with fh forever (which is of course a silly thought as the odds are like 50-50) and he's gonna take care of me for the rest of my life.

school used to be so much fun, in primary and secondary school.

especially my NPCC days... why why why cant time just have stood still at the moments we had so much fun and laughter together... even a second more...

through npcc i found my 5 besties. jessica, jolyn, michelle, eileen and wanyi, thought wanyi is not np de la, we still count her as one of us. for mich and jo we have been quite close ever since sec2, and somehow eileen and jess just joined the pack. i really cant put into words how much fun, laughter, tears, sorrow and joy we have gone through together... priceless memories, something which no money can ever buy. things went very rough in 2008, and im praying things will clear... things are taking an upturn now, of course im happy,more than happy, delighted that they have given me a second chance. suddenly miss my np pals so much...
if we were in camp now we'd probably be still all wide awake, everyone chatting, laughing and cadets doing santuary duty... the days when i was so involved in everything..

poly life is so different. its like you have many friends but they are like not so close.. i don know, all i know is i'll never find friends like the girls ever... really..

ahhhhh~ i don know why im saying all these. crappy shit. sorry if you actually even bothered reading this post, its abit nonsensical. forgive me i do have times when im thinking of a lot of stuffs and they jus come out in a mess. sighs. im gg to try and get some sleep.

oh,and its officially jolyn's birthday.happy 18th babe. (:

2009-03-11T22:36:00.002+08:00

today went out with lilin! hahaha! had pretty much fun with her as always. (:

shant say much. lol. i made fudge for tmr! hope it turns out well. damn long never make le. =x hope it would be fine. i decided to be adventurous and added frut loops in this time. LOL. :D

my masterpiece

2009-03-10T21:05:00.000+08:00

JIAHUI IS A HAPPY HAPPY GIRL TODAY! ((:

2009-03-09T19:11:00.003+08:00

haven been ranting bout my family for a period of time, so yeah it means that there's nothing gg on.
basically i go out when my mum is out and when she's back i'm shut up in my room and cant be bothered. life is so much better jus not talking. so today she jus confirmed with me shes's renting out MY ROOM. wtf. i don know what i did to deserve such a family in this life. ya to others it may seem no big deal. i have had my own room for like almost 7 years and suddenly i have to fall bacck to sleeping with my bro. that means no talking late night, no staying up till 3, and no no to many of my habits. really. to you all it may seem small, but come on man. who doesnt wan their own privacy? moreover i have had my room for like as long as i can remember.

im reeally notlooking forward to it.

i miss my life as a kid, every weekend we have family outings, everyday i would have dinner, and my mum and dad qould joke around and things were so happy back then. these days are gone forever. the next time in this scenerio i wont be the carefree kid anymore. why? what have i done to deserve this?
ever since my dad left or rather found another woman my life has changed so drastically. who will understand? so what if your family is broken like mine? every family will have its own problems which barely anyone will understand.

those will happy and complete familes, do treasure what you have, cos once they are gone, its likely to be forever. and like what i said if n the future you do have a wonderful family, you'll most likely be the mum or dad, and it'll be a totally different role and feeling.

if only i could let time freeze, back to 10 years ago...

2009-03-08T22:25:00.003+08:00

woke up at like 8 in the morning. trained down to je for breakfast at IMM. had swensens breakfast. its nice, i loveeeeeeeeee the creamy mushroom! ((: hahaha! jus a short day, shant reveal too much, cos im like not supposed to. LOL. :DD

im jus glad you never gave up on me. love you girls.

2009-03-06T22:51:00.004+08:00

went cycling at ECP today! perfect weather,okay a little too hot, but still nice. was sweating like hell after the 90 mins of biking. baby bladed, and he fell down! ))): only pi wai shang, but super alot blood can. i was like shocked la! but it will heal and its nothing serious so i guess its a blessing in disguise.

the view is super nice, doesnt look like singapore. super windy too! ((:

baby's stupid act cute faces! (x

yesterday so funny la! we were at lavender mrt station, then suddenly baby counted 3, 2, 1 asnd guess what. HE FARTED! DAMN LOUD! POOOOOOOOOT! LOLOLOL! :D i swear i was laughing like hell and didnt acknowledge him. really leh! lucky not many people sia. lol. xia suay.

did a damn long survey yesterday, made $80 and its all blown on my 262 photos! )): its cost almost $80! ok, $78.60. )): sadded.and im gonna spend more for sure. haiz. being in relationship very expensive. lol.

2009-03-02T21:14:00.005+08:00

went swimming at lilin's house today! hahaha! sooooo long since i last swam laaaa! super shiok! the weather was awesome! sun, clouds, but not cloudy, a slight breeze... weather totally different from the past few days. it did rain in the evening, but we had already gotten up and it didnt bother us too much.

we found a flower, and took act cute pics with it! and lilin's pic disappeared, idk why she didnt send me.lol. she broyght the flower home to put in her fouse fountain la! ((:

the flower on my head!

doesnt the cloud look like a bird?

our pic! ((:

we ordered canadian pizza for dinner!

other random pics we snapped (mostly of me by lilin)

2009-03-02T20:52:00.004+08:00

darling says:

today went for driving centre for one lesson. lol yupp. ended at ard 9.45. met tze lee to go amk after that. walk ard there and play 1hr of lan. quite fun. lol. played left for dead. supposed to be the most popular game now in sg. lol.

went to try my luck at the arcade to see if i can get one soft toy jus like last time the bunny i caught at e hub. lol. today luck quite good spent $15 for this stitch. x) our 2nd prezzie caught from the arcade. HAHA.

head home after that. yupp. that's abt it for today. (:

here's a pic. (:

2009-03-01T22:25:00.002+08:00

darling says:

today went for driving simulator at bbdc. it was like $16 for 20mins "driving" a fake car. like 90cents per min. suppose to end at 8.50 but 8.20 i finish lesson le. LOL.

went to find baby at pasir ris for swensen breakfast!! super duper nice. forgot to take pics. =x lol. confirm more worth it than mac breakfast. total for two set meal avg is 20 bucks. yupp. quality better also. recommended to give it a try. (:

went to bought present with baby for kw and slack at her hse. yupp. pei her to tenah merah cos she meeting lilin to go NATTAS fair. yupp. went to my cousin's hse for dinner after that. lol. rain like dunno wat in je and jw. LOL. super big. reached home ard 9pm. lol.

yupp. thats abt all for today. (:

LOVEYOU FOREVER BABY <33
i'll never leave you.

2009-03-01T21:04:00.004+08:00

YAYYYYYY~ changed blogskin! finally! so difficult to find nice one. don know what went wrong in the bottom, but hack la, lazy change le. i personalised it leh! whooo~

yesterday met up with michelle and jolyn! (((((: missed them so much, fianlly got to go out again, really very happy. im waiting for the chance with jess and eileen too. just a day out or even a meal im happy le. they are still the same, so much memories flooded back and its made me realise how much i have missed out during the past few months of not contacting. anyway i enjoyed it thoroughly and a few random pics i took of them.

oh ya! they zam (violently put) chocolate on me! ))): on my 2 hands! kena attacked sia! )))):

bought tix to disney on ice, 16 march monday at 7 pm! cant wait! ((: nearly didnt buy cos the first time we asked the system was down ilandwide, bt went back after the frolick and yes! it was up again!

today supposed to go kw chalet but decided to give it a miss and went to NATTAS at expo with lilin. wa! the queue ah, siao-ness la! really. super crowded. anyway we are making plans to go phuket, $168 for 4d3n, exclude air tix. intending to get tiger airways. lol. cheapest. but looking for people to go with us, so if you interested fdo tell us okay! we hoping to go before school starts. (:

and i bought thsi for kw. loads of sweeties! ((: hope you like it!

2009-02-26T22:19:00.002+08:00

wanted to change bs again but tooooo lag so shall change another day. (:

really having so much mixed feelings now, i really wanna quit school or transfer course. really waste my time. i really don know why im such a loser and a rotten apple.simple things also cant do well. im losing my grip, im struggling to stand up again, but im falling down, deeper and deeper, and losing my hold on everything.

mayb its time i let myself fall freely and pick myself up again from the very start.

yes jiahui is exhausted, and she doesnt know what to do. jiahui prays that for the answer and that she will have the strength and courage to walk on.

i only feel safe when your arms are around me and you hold me tightly in your embrace. remember you promised never to leave me alone.

2009-02-26T10:47:00.001+08:00

darling says:

today is my last day of my exams!. (: cant wait till its 4.00pm. official time. lol.
now in somewhere in sch studying last min. LOL. hope can do well. from past yr papers the paper looks easy. x)

chiong ahh~

loves baby jiahui <33
muacks*

2009-02-25T15:53:00.001+08:00

yayyy~ jus finished MES! feels like all exams over liao. lol. (x

not too sure if i can pas the module, worse to worse retake la, bobian also, i guess its a 50-50 chance ba. but im too happy to care now. don know why, cos tomorrow is E L S! ))):

cant wait sia, after els wa, can relax le, cos poa should be a more managable module since i already have some background in the pat. wonder why this doesnt apply to els. hahaha. >.<

looks like its gonna rain. well, best wishes for all your remaining papers!

*MUGGGGGGG!

2009-02-23T10:07:00.007+08:00

okay, finally im home from my grandmama's place and i can update properly too! (: okay its gonna be a pretty long post, very picture-ful. LOL. hope you all enjoy!

okay past few days supposed to be studying... welllll.... didnt get as much done as we wanted to, but still, who ever gets anything done right? especially when you are out of school. LOL. i drew baby's finger at his request! gay right he, i hate people drawing on mine, but i don mind drawing for someone else! :D

okay, 21 feb 2009! TEN months! amazing. i certainly never thought we would make it this far, and im sure many didnt think we'd last that long too. well, the feeling seems stronger than ever and the future indeed seems clearer than before too. serious plans, no more playing a fool, and working hard to build a family and the best we can. some might scoff, thinking we may not last till marriage. whatever the future holds in store for us, we shall face it together, and let nature tae its course. but for now, all i know is i love him, him, him and only him. happy belated 10 months baby. <33>.<) then recently everyone like eating fondue so we went to eat too! hahaha! ate at swensens, super nice!

okay, now is the vaentine's update! i shall let the pics do the talking la, but i forgot to take the food we had at jack's place. ): we had a grat dinner there! and it was crowded like hell la. lol. we went in queue that long, went out queue even longer! hahaha! took a few pics! oh we went to watch pin panther 2, and it was awesome!

baby and me ~

some random individual shoots

our neooooos!

baby's vday gifts for me

my vday gifts for baby

oay, thats bout it. time to mugggggggggg! best wishes for all of your exams! (: JY!

2009-02-21T11:46:00.002+08:00

I MISS JY COMFY BED!

I MISS MY LAPPY!

I LOVE MY WONDERFUL GRANDMAMA! SHE'S THE BEST ON EARTH! I SWEAR!

hahahahahahha. im boreddddddddddddd. don wan studyyyyyyyyyyyyy. ))))):
cant win baby bastard in geo challenge. )))))))):

haiz. life sucks. but i love my grandmother! she rocks!

and today is 21 feb! NOT a very special day. ^^ but den hor.
quite special also la. aiyaaaaaaaaaaa. i don know what i typing siaaaaaaaa.

utterly bored-ism can! ))))))))))))):

yay~ 1 more week and then, ka ching! $$$$$$$$! i need a freaking jobbbbbb!

ahhhhhhhhhhhh~ i really don know why im even publishing this post!
i think im gg crazyyyyyyyyyyyyyy!

AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH~

ok, better! (: seeya all! will update tmr. (:

2009-02-18T14:24:00.002+08:00

okay im here to bloggggggggg! hahaha! like supposed to be studying now but obviously cant get anything done la. lol. went to my grandmama hose to get away from my biggest distraction, my lappy, but found an even bigger biggest distraction. who else. foohong lor. LOL. and im using his lappy now! so like, no diff right? ): hahaa. okay anyway, will update bout past few days la.

okay yesterday supposed to study (see i used SUPPOSED again. haiz. which means ob viously didnt do anything gain.) but end up gg to cathay to wtch the curious case of benjamin buttons! and..... NOT RECOMMENDED! at all. full stop. i thought it was like interesting but okay half the movie i was sleeping. literally. i didnt even know what happened can. when i fel asleep he was still an old man. when i woke up, wa! young and dashing man liao. LOL. :D but he is very handsome in his young age la, or old? he is born in his eihties and groes younger you see, so ya. and... im very happy to find out i wasnt the only one sleeping! cos i heard people behind me saying they slept too! ^^ den yesterday suddenly had outbreak of rashes! )))): supppppppper itchy. and i spent like 90 mins in the polyclinic. damn. and i look awfu now, patchs all over my body and soooooooooooooo itchy but cannot scratch. ))))))): hope it faster get well, lately like everytime exam will something happen to me la.

okay so thats for past two days. lets see. yupp my uncle passed away on 12 feb. then that was like my first time attending a funeral proper. and was like whoo~ cryings cryings and ya more cryings la. pretty interesting experience for a first timer like me. haa many weird rituals. wont bore you al wth the details la eh, i think mos of you all know how it works.
pretty much opathetic sight, especially hen you reach mundai for cremation. everyone was jus calling 'bee, wake up. bee stand up.' (ah bee was his nickname la, sort of) then ya his kids were crying like hell, and ya in fact everyone was crying like hell. he had 9 siblings, so it was quite a sight. ok wont go in much la, not exactly very nice to blg bout these kinda stuff.

ok next is valentines? hahahaha! you all read till eye pain liao right. valentines this sunday la okay. with the pcs. hahaha. let you all have some suspense if not not fun liao hor.

(: gg hunting for tze lee prezzie later. so much for STUDYING. -.- ohhhhhhhhh~ he's finally gg to get himself a girlfriend! and he'll stop poaching m fh from me! ^^

2009-02-16T00:06:00.002+08:00

alright, its like freaking late and im damn tired but stillmust blog.

okay i went for my uncle's funural today and it was pretty much an interesting experience for me. the ritual was very long, and tiring, and it was the first time i actually attended a funeral. too lazy to go into details, will do it when i get back.

will complete all uploading of pics and vday details asap, cos i;ll be at my grandmama house studying for FYs. will blog tmr if im not too tird. anyway it was really an exhaudsting thursaday friday saturday sunday and tmr gg to send my uncle to mundai for cremation, so gotta get up real early too. what a hectic week, funeral, intregrated proj. v day. ahhhhhhhhh~

will be back to update asap! sorry for delay!

2009-02-13T16:49:00.002+08:00

YAY~ finally i have completed my intregrated proj! and i just submitted. (: okay i now most of my classmates will be pestering me for the pics, so have uploaded it here. not very very nice, since its very rushed - i completed the VIZ in ie 2 days. -.- but there is some effort put in, and im particularly satisfied with my living room! HAHAHA.

from top to bottom: teenage girl's room, master bedroom and living room.

next wee study wee and then FYs! ):

gotta work real real hardt this time. JIAYOU EVERYONE! (:

my 4th uncle passed away, 12 feb 2009. rest in peace si peh. you will be missed by the entire family.

2009-02-12T10:44:00.002+08:00

okay today must be like my ultimate suay de. okay la not that unlucky also but i haven had such awful luck in awhile.

today first oversleep. but today no class, so OTOT, not so bad, except i made baby wake up super early. >.< then went to bus stop, bus still auite fast. was still thinking, wa heng bus fast, can faster reach school. den ah, wa reach mrt den realsi my ezlink card decided to MIS. ): i hope its at home. so neh mind, i go buy standard fare. $1.50! ): not that ex but enough for me to eat breakfast at cantten 2 la! den the stupid machine don accept notes for standard fare! StUPID RIGHT! and since i had not enough coins still had to queue up to change coins. piang. wasted so much time.

den went up platform, missed 1 train cos no seats. it wsnt crowded, jus no seats. so decided to wait for next train cos i bring lappy den bag super heavy. den ah. piang! next train right, crowded ah! *faints. only like TWO pathetic people alighted, so only like TWO empty seats, den like super alot people at pasir ris can! who say stay at end good. also no seats. ): all the stupid idiot assholes from tampines sit and don wan go out. hello! you sit to pasir ris means you should alight there right! still sit and behave like nothing happen. damn these people la. then all the kiasu office people just hack care you and push past you like you don exist. HELLP. im human too. jus because im a student doesnt mean you can treat me like some leaf and blow mw aside. really cant stand it. office people stand till city hall to tanjong pagar only ma mostly. so lng meh? stand awhile will die ah? i stand till clementi okay! i feel like waering a tag saying 'im alighting at clementi, so if you are getting of any stop before that please scram.' WTH. i hate adults. assholes.

okay anyway i stood all the way to clementi with a super heavy bag. then got ths weird girl come and stand beside me. okay she aint weird, jus reminds me of that kiam pa girl i sat with the other day. i shant go into detail, lazy.anyway she alighted at bouna vista too, same as that kiam pa girl. all the irritating study at bouna vista i think. then on the train i saw this girl wearing alomst exactly the same shirt as me! argh! its actually the same kind, exact, except mine is the cow and hers is the monkey - which i happen to have as well. lucky i neh wear sia, if not like quite embarrassing. lol.

then reach clementi, worse. i wanted to claim back my $1deposit for standard fare, so went to the machine. but then hor cannot poke the card through leh! den i was standing there like some asshole like that, trying to poke the card but cannot. i see the machine top, says welcome ma, so should be working what. so i conclued the machine didnt like me and went to the next one. still cannot poke through eh! so pissed. was wondering if to ask the mrt personnel to help, den saw 'deposit refun' on the screen. so of cos i pressed and my card can go in liao. -.- im such a big fat idiot! well i rarely use standard fare ma. ):

what a morning. and actually i really need to pee now but nobody look after my stuffs for me (im like alone at np library level 5 now) so gotta wait for baby come first. ):

2009-02-12T00:26:00.002+08:00

baby's early valentine gift for me... on pet society! LOL. :DD

ooooooooh, and i have been spending sooooooooooooooooo much money lately la. with valentines coming and preparing for the big day on 210409. *winks. ahhhhhhhhhhh~ im so gonna work this hols. super broke. ): i think im poorer than kl now.

2009-02-10T20:55:00.002+08:00

went for trg today. new sec1s. kinda thought back of so many things i went through the last 4 years. i really love np so much, yet it is this that puts me down. the past years in hscnpcc, it was so beautiful... really jus wanna go back and wish for time to freeze there, but everything has to go on.

thanks mich. it really means alot to me.

2009-02-09T22:02:00.002+08:00

yay~
finally got my swollen gum checked out and it seems to be the wisdom tooth. LOL. >.< jialat la, very pain. but doc gave some med and did some cleaning, and WOOSH! byebye $50. ): oh well, better den living in pain and cant eat anything. i don think i have lost weight over the past few days though. HAHAHA. fat den fat luh, baby don find me too fat can le. *self comfort only. :DD

okay anyway, been really hooked to love story lately, and i loveeeeeeeeeeee the last verse! aint it sweet!

I got tired of waiting

Wondering if you were ever coming around

My faith in you was fading

When I met you on the outskirts of town

And I said
Romeo save me, I’ve been feeling so alone

I keep waiting, for you but you never come

Is this in my head, I don’t know what to think

He kneels to the ground and pulled out a ring and said
Marry me Juliet, you’ll never have to be alone

I love you, and that’s all I really know

I talked to your dad-you’ll pick the white dress

It’s a love story, baby just say… yes…

2009-02-07T22:57:00.002+08:00

1800-3864541

wondering what hotline this is? its the IMH hotline. yes i think it'll be quite useful cos one day either my mum or me will be staying there. so im being prepared. (: i think it'll be me luh, cos my mum only know how to die ma, so ya i think i'll be the one more likely to go there to stay.

yupp. if you're laughing just go ahead and eally, laugh. spam all you wan, cos for me life is not worth even a bloody cent, and i'd die with no regrets now, cos i have already found the one i love and loves me. i have gone through so much more than anyone could ever have gone through in a lifetime, broken family, depressed mum, visual handicap, retaking of modules in poly, lost all my good friends overnight, i have gone through so many lowest point in life, i jus really don care anymore. say im crazy say im mad. noone understands my situation, and if you realised i haven used fuck a single time cos to me even FUCK is not strong enough to descirbe the life im living. i think i need to go somewhere far far away. maybe its time.

2009-02-05T21:41:00.003+08:00

updates!

hahahahah! i never thought i'd be saying this but im really gonna miss CATS! and all my crazy group! hahaha! really had an awesome time with them. ((: LOVES~

really have alot of emotions running through me, yet uts jus so difficult to express in words. JIAYOU JIAHUI!

2009-02-03T20:52:00.003+08:00

went to jp after school to get my stuffs. so after im done today and the goods are delivered on saturday, i'll be free to focus on my studies. (: okay, spent quite alot since its for quite a few people. wonder if im doing the right thing, i only hope they will like the things as much as i do. ^^ no matter what, you'll always be a part of me. though its a little early for valentine's. but i wont be free anytime near anyway, all the stupid projs and FYs coming up.

went to precious thoughts to get my things, and bought a keychain too. (: i think baby is turning gay, he has too many keychains on his bag for a boy. LOL. :DD

2009-02-03T15:39:00.002+08:00

in ids now! LOL finally out with my floor plan, but like got something wrong with my autocad prog. ): oh well, must cheong! dateline next frida. so rush. presentatuion on thurs, followed by one last week of school den study week.
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then exams. ): hope can clear els successfully, but the odds aint that good la. anyway thanks to bh, galvin and baby for comforting me yesterday. jus for those who wanna know i didnt clear the CT. i guess many of you must be laughing your ass off now thinking what a losert i am. oh well. no other retorts from me. i don say things im not confident of. no matter what whether im out of np or nor i ill always be the same me.

hmm. no feeling to blog liao, class ending soon! ((: first smiley in this post. HaHAHA. continue tonight if im not too lazy. ^^

2009-02-01T21:20:00.002+08:00

today smaine vera and lilin came my house gamble! hahaha. but by the time vera reached smaine left le. ): anyway it was pretty fun, though if hc was around would be better. LOL. :DD

then went ehub walk walk, ate dinner there. actually today like nothing much to blog la, jus for the sake of my readers. hahaha.

oh. I LOVE WU HUA GUO! after searching the whole ntuc to not find it, dropped by 7-11 and yay~ i found it! hahaha! super nice cn. and stop wondering. LOL. i am one person feeding one person not two hor! me and baby only believe in sex after marriage. HAHAHA.
okay i think im going abit too far. enough le. >,< i said too much.school tomorrow! ):

2009-01-31T22:23:00.007+08:00

okay the 2 stupid pics were drawn by my CATS groupmate alvin last thursday during class, cos we were too bored. hahaha! supposed to upload this earlier but slipped my mind, so here it is today. look like zy face hor. LOL. :DD

today baby came around my house at 4plus. slackedand simply chilled out. been so long since we had this kinda fun, and really jus went wild today. hahaha. then went to new york new york to eat dinner! (: cool food there, fab. took afew pics there. yupp.

okay anyway baby suprised me today with a cushion! cos my mermaid like lao hong alr. LOL. darn sweet, plus today no occasion! hahaha! and the best part for today is... HE CAUGHT ME A BUNNY FROM THE ARCADE! LOVE YOU BABY! (: and its like quite big those kind. we play the cutter one not the jaws pick up one. LOL. i was screaming when he caught it and i literally strangled him. HAHAHA. really sia. SUPER DEE DUPER HAPPY! (: 2 presenrs in one day! THANKS MY DARLING FOOHONG HUBBY!

and following this, all the toys we collect will go to our little precious benjamin and chole baby. we're waiting for you precious. *muacks.

2009-01-30T23:21:00.002+08:00

today met up wth lilin and vera babes! (: went to watch BRIDE WARS. so qiao saw zhiwei and her friend, and we sat side by side! LOL. small world. :DD anyway in the show had alot of emotions running through me, basically the 2 best friends fighting reminded me of myself and the girls. kinda hoping that things would work out fine in the end, but from the way things are going it seems impossible. oh well. let the past go, i already given up all hopes. i will still never forget all occasons, and they will always be my best friends no matter how they hate or feel disgusted with me.

then went to playgroung with my two girls, and baohui and galvin. hahaha. kinda weird combi, but everyone hit off well. ^^ sat on the swing, chit chatted and went home. enjoyed today alo. been so long since i last hung out for a whole day with my friends, and its an awesome feeling.

i think im losing myself, i don know what got into me.

[ when did reality become tv ]

2009-01-29T21:06:00.003+08:00

MY ZI LIAN ZAO! hahahaha! rarely i so zi lian sia. this was on the second day of CNY, so yeah. decided to have abit of long lost fun. (:

yesterday sang k with zhiyuan meng yun and baby! hahaha! so fun la! so long never sing, but SUPER EX can. but still worth it. we cabbed down to marina from ngee ann, and meng yun drove me nuts the whole day! HAHAHA. she's a really cool and funny girl man! (READ THIS HOR MENG MENG) (: me and baby ate this really cool warm chocolate cake! DARN NICE! like got hot choco flow out those kind! and some pics for yesterday. ^^

(my GAY CATS groupmate, ZY!)

2009-01-26T23:43:00.003+08:00

HAPPY CNY TO ALL!

hahah! finally the time we have all been waiting for, ang paos! yay~ i received quite a hefty sum, so i aint complaining already. (:

anyway today went my grandmama's house. had more fun than i imagined, when everyone sat down to play blackjack. HAHAHA. all my aunties uncles and cousins. i used my dad's money as capital, and won bout 10 bucks. not alot, but still, can buy 1 movie tix leh! LOL. :DD my cards quite goos la, but i play small, only 50 cents to 1 buck per game. play halfway headache so stopped. ):

cool right? 4 aces and 2. smallest combo ever. and ME ME ME got it! hahaha! everyone was impressed la. ^^ ~wheeeeeeeeeeeeee!

2009-01-25T22:11:00.002+08:00

today reunion but saw neither my mum nor my dad. both in their own world, and i only had my psp to pei me at my ah ma house. saw them for a while in the day but never got around to actually having a proper meal with them. cant remember when was the last time i had sat down for a proper home cooked meal with them, as a complete family, or even separated. i never had a chance to have dinner together as one family, even before my parents were separated. maybe it was almost 5 o 6 years ago, maybe more.

i cant wait for chole and ben benbaby to join our life.

got a few red packers today, my dad gave foohong one too, though he didnt make his presence. quite suprised. LOL. :D

and ya i know im fat la okay. don need keep telling me im fat. I KNOW. and ya im sorry if my fat-ness has offended anyone one of you, or if you really detest fat people. and i know im ugly and i shouldnt have a boyfriend and ya you all might say he probably doesnt love me and is jus making use of me. whatever. its my life. and ys if my fat-ness has made your life so unhappy for any reason jus ignore me and detest me all you wan. cos i cant be bothered anymore. spammers here spammers there always directing at the topic of me being fat. i had enough. next one i see im gonna report to police and i really mean it whether you believe it or not. and at the same time i will trace the previous spammers who had created chaos on my blog previously.

lastly.. happy CNY (: